swoob&swass

Today I, along with three other older girls, went to scrimmage our highschool girls basketball team.

Talk about a workout. So draining but very worth the sweat.

Hope your Christmas Eve & Christmas Day were fantastic. Don't mean to brag but my days were filled with much love, laughter & food. I loved EVERY minute. To top it off I was able to snuggle and rock the youngest cousin to sleep--my favorite <3

The top pictures of my two family Christmas'
a. She cried because she couldn't be with Chance in the family picture. Too adorable.

b. He picked his nose--all day. Couldn't help but laugh when mom caught this on film : )

A.

B.

Tom&Jerry's-Playstation360-Fondue-Family

The five of us did Christmas at home tonight. It was so great to not worry about anything but food, love & presents of course!  The gift to the family was a Playstation 360--talk about fun! Volleyball can be destructive with a not-so-high ceiling. But so so so worth it. We had lots of smiles & laughs and nothing is better than those two together.  Tomorrow we go to Dad's side of the family right down the road and Saturday to Grandma's. More than ready for my lovely family for the next two days!
p.s. I know it's a little late-but was too adorable not to show!
My sister and I got a little bored yesterday so we took pictures : )

p.s.s. I may or may not want to be this couple in the future...

Today's Agenda

Long Time, No See

HOME:

It has kept me busy.

It has kept me thinking.

   

1. Had a run-in with my emotions this past weekend.
2. Close to three months went by without a word & then I get a hug.
3. Not sure where that comes in but tryin like hell to get it outta my head.
4. You make me weak in the knees still.
5. "You Are STRONGER" (I say to myself)

Cousins--minus 6 of us

My family is my ROCK. 

We had an amazing Sunday filled with ugly sweaters, sledding, snowmobiling & best of all laughter of the greatest degree.

Yes, I love them & they love me.

I've got friends in all the right places

Sleep-over tomorrow night! She has been one of the saving graces for me thus far & will be for a lonnng time. <3 her.

It is going to be so different without my girls and even some of the guys that I've become closer friends with.  Three weeks is going to feel like forever for me. 

• I will be open these next couple of weeks.
• I will go out & have fun for myself
• I will spread love to all those who are true to me. 

Be Yourself

Had to try out posing--so very unprofessional but fun. & that's all that matters right here, right now.

it takes courage to grow up and become who you really are.  ~e.e. cummings

Good Night to All, & to All a Good Night

 

Finals

Instead of studying at all yesterday I bought these

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So excited to pair them with my new outfit!

It seems like it was just a few weeks ago that I loaded up my car to come back here-

& now I'm not sure if I even want to leave, if only for a week or two. 

My girls are true friends and that's what I both want as well as need. I don't know what I would do without any of them. 

& even on my weakest days...

I get a little bit stronger.

Or at least tell myself to do so

It's been one of those days. UPS and downs. Curveballs thrown from within my heart. Have you ever felt unsure of where to turn, what to say, or how to act?

That's where I've been, still am most days. I want to prove that I am O.K. & I will...just maybe not today. 

Today:

All I want for Christmas is You

I'm having boot fever. I want a pair so so bad!

 Along with this Vince Camuto Crossbody--adorable.

I am having mixed feelings about traveling home next thursday and staying there for a month.

Plus side--my lovely and amazing family and true friends

Down side--ughhh, don't even want to think about it.

Another plus is the workouts I'll hopefully get while practicing with my sister's ball team--the gym is becoming my safe haven, in a healthy way of course!

Oh and most definitely looking forward to a ride on Doc:

& sledding with the cousins of all ages!

...If only I had this sled!

U-G-L-Y

you ain't got no alibi you ugly! yah! yah! you ugly!

Basketball theme night - Ugly Sweaters

Take a gander at these sweater treasures.  I truly wanted to be the cat woman but figured the Holiday spirit was the way to go. Such a fun night!

& WE ROCKED IT 

Summer Funk

This is a shoutout for a friend. She lives in Grand Forks and hates winter--God help her. Hoping to brighten her day and warm her toes with this picture   <3

I Love Love Love out family lake cabin. It is the perfect escape from everything, anything & anyone.



m-i-l-e-s-t-o-n-e

For the first time in close to three months I didn't wake up in the middle of the night due to shitty dreams or you could call em nightmares.

It was complete bliss to wake up to the white light coming through the blinds instead of darkness. I know it was only one night, but hey its a start...right? 

Maybe in the end it is true--maybe darkness is afraid of the light.  In my case, I damn well hope so. 

..because I'm tired of it 

Rising With The Sun

This past summer I, for the life of me, could not sleep. Sooo--I took pictures of every stage of the rising sun.  It was breathtaking to see God's hand at work.  This is one of the last pictures I took before going in to take a much needed nap. I am ready for those carefree summer days to be back. Oh dear sun come back to us.



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"Happiness is a Mood,

Not a Destination"

-Julian of One Tree Hill

How true is that?  Why keep searching for that one person, thing or idea that will make you happy when truthfully happiness is only a mood.  Do we need to have a goal to be happy?  Everyone has their shitty days & that is the way it is supposed to be.  But just remember...be thankful for what you have, not what could be.  Because, what if the could be never will be?